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I Don't Want to Be Tired Anymore

by Oh Dear!

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It's so hard to change, darling I want to. Know that I want to. Once it's figured out, the slate will be clean, and new. But it's hard to keep jealousy out every day, Or to always have something even decent to say. When the willingness to compromise turns desire to detach, It gets easier to shrug off any good things that have passed. So I hide up in my head, away from these friends, Where this emptiness makes sense, And the thoughts of what I've traded to stay all alone, Stands like a column of stone. Love acts as a mirror polished to shine, Some reflection of failures I want to hide. Even trying to be careful doesn't guarantee a thing. In every single story told, I can't help from hearing my own. I think everything revolves around me, I will drag you down. When I get back home from work, there's a need to lay back down. Nothing sounds like it's worth the while, I will drag you down. When the good nights come around, there's an expectation they'll stay, But they're always going to go away, I will drag you down. All the sweetest things we've said, are going to vanish like a magic pen. I will only have myself to blame, Once I drag you down.
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Scurry my feet across the carpet floor, While all my friends are in the living room or the hallway. But I can't see them there. The bathroom is cold like it usually is, And the bathtub acts as a hideaway. I don't need your help, cause I'll do it all myself. I don't want to wake up when my head is clear. With just a little bit of liquor I'll forget myself. That's what happens when, The weekend wins again. I hope you wake me up, If I pass out again. I'll try to stay controlled, I won't yell at all my friends.
4.
AP Studies 03:32
It started off, watch pot the clock, Hoping it would end quickly. My eyes passed, over math, And the language that we speak. To get drunk, well before lunch, In the dugout during class. So when the teachers called the house, It was their words against mine. And I honestly thought mine would win. Never really understood the lack of thought, Or figured out a decent way around this lethargy I've got. Sleeping with a heavy head in the books, Was the only way to make it through whichever pills I took. My grades set up camp in the back of a mind, I was too tired to fight. At twenty six it's no different, Only older on the outside. Bills late all the time, I act like it's alright. There's no strategy, Or plans to fix it all this time. It's just me, Sleeping in a silent messy room. There has to be a lesson to learn. Never really understood the lack of thought, Or figured out a decent way around this lethargy I've got. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I don't want to be like this anymore. And it all could shine, If I only tried.
5.
The EP 04:29
I don't want to know, if anybody thinks I'm right. Its easier to stay blind, than always have to shut these eyes. As the days go by, I stop wondering why. I can't relate, so I's hoping it will come in time. But it's always the same when there is a need to be social at all. Well I'm afraid to try, just about anything. Even these simple tasks, show me what I have or lack. In the end, it feels like I'm nothing at all. It's all unclear, nothing here's discernible. This life, it feels, as meaningless as meaningful. A beginning and end, a prepackaged lifetime. The only thing that's certain, is the middle where we all exist, And I am here. It's a wonderful illusion to suppose, there's any kind of meaning to it all, cause it's hard to believe in anything. So I push these thoughts back down, cause they never helped me anyhow. It's easier to stay blind, than take a look around. As the days go by. I stop wondering why. No one agrees, but it's comforting to say out loud. The fact I exist doesn't warrant a meaning at all. While I'm afraid to die, the thought is always held inside. Even in that empty black, there is nothing I will have or lack. In the end, I will be nothing again.
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So You Know 02:29
So you know, we know who you really are, and what you're doing here. I can't really say that I am surprised. I know you love the attention, when the spotlight is on you. You don't think that I notice, but it's so very see through. So now you know.
7.
Shit Show 03:07
I sleep in this bed, for days on end. I am going backwards, to become who I was. And I know, that it will be a shit show. I wait for you to see me. You've seen quite enough of me tonight. I'll always search for a love, that won't ever exist. I thought I found it once, but it didn't mean anything. You've seen quite enough of me tonight.
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Champagne 02:55
You've got champagne taste on a boxed wine budget. I know you'd like to think you don't. It's not like you're not good enough for anyone, it's more like you're not good enough for anyone good enough for you. I could let it go, if I knew I'd never see you again. I will feel better alone. Changes never come in this cycle. I've given in all i can give. So it's time to let go now. It's not like you're not good enough for anyone, it's more like you're not good enough for anyone good enough for you. I could let it go, if I knew I'd never see you again. I will feel better alone.
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Outro 02:06

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released July 31, 2012

Brandon Sagnella: Vocals, Guitar, Bass
Justin Martin: Guitar
Jacob Gosselin: Drums, Bass, Guitar, Vocals
Sam Franklin: Drums, Percussion
Cello on Shit Show by Shane Sullivan

Produced by Oh Dear!
Engineered by Oh Dear!
Mixed by Sam Franklin and Jacob Gosselin
Mastered by Levi Seitz at Black Belt Mastering
Design by Stephen Lloyd

Special thanks to Mason Fidino for guitar on "A Bathroom Song"

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Oh Dear! Tacoma, Washington

Oh Dear! is comprised of Brandon Sagnella (vocals, guitar), Justin Martin (guitar), Jacob Gosselin (bass) and Samuel Franklin (drums)

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